Thinking about all the boys in the bath...

After talking to Joe tonight, I was a bit sleepy and tired, but after read a couple of gay banker’s blog, I decided to go to bath before I felt asleep in from of my computer.

As everyone know bath can actually relax your body, it does help to remember things as well.. so before all the memory become nothing, I was determinate to recorded it all down.

After coming back from Eric Thursday, I was a bit lost in a way. Ok, hi is cute and have a great personality, but I don’t like the fact that he have friends that taking drugs and going out to fire every week. Well actually I was lying, I don’t like the fact that after we spend the night together, than he went out to have dinner with other guys. Probably he just also like gay banker, open minded and having fun with many guys( nothing wrong with that, but it kind of contradictory with my believe that monogamous relationship don’t work).

Tonight was great for me actually, I was planning to coming back to my own empty bed, make some pasta and stuff, probably watch a porn or two, but Kris and her BF( Lucas I think) invited me to stay for dinner after filming, it end up we get a long quite well and had a couple of beer together. She even told me about she want to have anal play with her BF, and stories about her shaving “downstairs” etc.

After with out new heterosexual friends for a while, it is good to know that I was welcome to and being enjoying having company with. Otherwise I would just sit alone, checking out guys on fridae, which is very pointless and silly, and also upsetting about eric, why he not replying my text or some thing

But actually he sends my back one tonight.
“Hi hi.. How are you? So tired from week.. Cant do tomorrow, but thanks.. Maybe Sun? ps: what is book shelter? Hehe..”
it was the reply to my yesterday’s text said that I were thinking about he told me about he took the selves off from the wall in his living room while I’m making book selves in my bedroom. Sony Ericsson miss spell my word, so that magic monument I was carefully lay in the sentence didn’t work well.
Then I reply:
“Sounds good. Should I go yours with a bottle of wine or you like to come over? x”
after send the text, I was regrated, it just make me looks like a slut or at least desprate. Well acturally maybe I’m. No further text exchange after that, no surprise form me either.

so sat night going to be empty then… without to much resistence mind, I decided to ask dimi out for a drink, but as I know he will probably just want to go to GAY late to meet some cute little boys anyway. Then wonder whether I should invite Rob out as well, but that will another time of me never learns from mistake.